Don't lie to me! (Tagged)

[Isilme]

Nightpaw had watched the ceremonies with his normal bored face, he had been a apprentice for two moons already and was really starting to think his dear mentor had forgotten about him, but truth be told, he was actually worried about Sunstar not watching over him anymore, she had been quite determinated to make him change but these last weeks she had been more distant, even if he was never going to admit it the male had learned to respect the leader and he quite enjoyed trying to annoy her, so this sudden change of behavior had bothered him.

Blue eyes studed the leader while she talked and when Sunstar let few coughs scape he knew what was wrong, she was sick, he narrowed his eyes angry that the female had not looked for help yet, he was going to give her a piece of his mind when the ceremony was over and- His thoughts were interrupted by surprise when she made him a warrior again, Nightfox just stared at her blankly for a few moments until her familiar fur disappeared inside her den, this made the warrior move quickly and soon enough he was at the entrance of her den.

He didn't waited for any invitation to come in, his eyes focused on her form and his tail moved side to side clearly unhappy. "When you planned to tell me you got sick?" The massive cat asked not very gentle, he wanted answers and he was going to get them. "Have you talked to Bluewing or Cherrypaw yet? Or you want to lose a life that bad." Nightfox hadn't mean to sound rude, but that was only his way of showing he cared about her.

Deku

[Deku]

Sunstar settled into her nest, shivering slightly. She was sure she was sick, but going to the medicine cat was not an option. Bluewing and her apprentice were busy with all the other sick cats. If she died yo this, she would simply lose a life and keep living. If others died because the medicine cats were focused on their leader, they would not be able to live again in this clan. They would simply die and move on to a future life without friends and family. Yes, her intentions were good, but apparently others didn't think so.

Nightfox came storming in and she sighed. What did he want? She was no longer his mentor, and he was no longer an apprentice. He didn't need her permission to do things anymore. When he mentioned the sickness, she glanced up mildly surprised. How had he known? She had been careful to hide any sign of it. Especially the coughing. However, that was not what surprised her most. His questions and tone, while rude, showed that he cared. When had he started caring? This was the lazy warrior who had taken the time to fill her den with moss because she had punished him. How to answer him though... Should she lie and avoid the question? No, she needed to speak the truth.

She lowered her amber gaze from the tom. "I wasn't planning on telling anyone Nightfox." She mewed softly. "The medicine cats already have their work cut out for them with cats who do not have the ability to lose a life and still live. I don't want them using their time and herbs on I who can do just that. No I do not want to lose a life, but I must think of the greater good." Another fit of coughing took over as she finished. Just a few days ago it hadn't been that bad, but now it was terrible and still growing worse. There was no doubt in her mind that this deadly disease would steal a life.

[Isilme]

The black tom had to hold back a smart remark, now it wasn't the time to be making stupid jokes about her suicidal behavior. "So you planned on hiding this from everyone?! Are we not your clan Sunstar? How dare you put your life in risk like this without even letting anyone know!" He said clearly not happy with the leader words. "How do you think everyone will react to this? You know that any of those cats would die for you without thinking twice and while your intention is noble, you should at least have told the clan, or you had no intention of telling anyone that you lost a life as well?" Nightfox narrowed his eyes at the female, hoping with all his heart she wasn't actually thinking about that. "You spent two moons teaching me how the clan is important, how we are a family, but how does this behavior help the clan? How the leader dying make us stronger?" His voice was softer this time, because truth be told, he understood why she was doing that, but he was not giving up without a fight, in the last case he would drag one of the medicine cats to her den and make them treat her, she could punish him later when she was health again.

[Deku]

She didn't respond to his outburst, and simply continued staring at the ground. Yes, she had planned on hiding it from everyone. She would have told Willowbranch if she lost a life, just because she was her deputy, but otherwise she hadn't wanted anyone to use their time worrying over her. They needed all the time they could get yo make sure the clan was fed and safe.

She flicked her ears as she listened go him rant. StarClan, this tom was infuriating. He was right, and it made her feel even worse. She sighed. "Maybe you're right Nightfox. It is stupid for me to be trying to hide this from the clan, but think about it. If they were worried about me, would they get more or less hunting done? Would the clan be well taken care of if they spent their time worrying about me?" She paused a moment."Trust me, I don't want to die. Even if I'll just lose a life and then come back. I only have a few real friends in LeafClan. You, Willowbranch, an-" She cut herself off as she remembered Beetlestrike. The handsome black tom had disappeared and she had lost hope of him ever returning. She missed him greatly. Especially the comfort he had offered readily whenever she needed it. She shook her head slightly. "You, Willowbranch, and Beetlestrike are my only real friends in this clan. Well, I guess if you consider me a friend."

[Isilme]

Nightfox sighed and sat down wraping his tail around himself. "Sunstar, this is not about how much the warriors would worry about you, I´m sure that mostly would feel honored that you are willing to sacrifice yourself for them, this is about trust, when you first became leader not everyone was sure of your potential but slowly and with a lot of effort you won their trust and their love, are you willing to throw this away? Willing to lose the trust of the clan just because you don´t want them to worry about you?" He focused his eyes on her own trying to make her see just how stupid that was and trying not to lose his very thin patience in the process, Starclan knows how hard that was. "I do trust you with my life, but you didn´t trusted me enough to share this, okay perhaps I´m not the most recommended cat to share something like that but you see my point? How you think everyone will feel with this lie? Everyone in this clan would die for you and yet you are not willing to share your pain with them?" The tom said doing his best to sound calm and not accusing, but the difference was really small at this point, the female next statement took him by surprise. "You really think I would be here if I didn´t considered you a friend?" He asked actually a little amused with the her words.

[Deku]

No matter how much she hated to admit it, he was right. This used to be lazy warrior was right. At the beginning, the clan hadn't trusted her. They thought she would disappear like Froststar, or become evil like Silverstar. Eventually, she had earned their trust though. They finally seemed to have hope of building the clan to what it used to be.

She studied his blue eyes silently. He was doing a very good job at keeping his anger hidden away. He seemed to be trying his hardest to stay patient with her. That should have comforted her, but alas it didn't. It just reminded her of her lost love. Beetlestrike had been all that a warrior should have been. Patient, kind, and yet willing to sacrifice his own life for his clan. Beetlestrike's ways of comfort had been so much more soothing. He had spoken softly until she had finally given into and told him what was wrong. Nightfox, seemed the opposite. He demanded the answers from the beginning. At this point in time she could feel tears as she thought of the small warrior, and she realized she hadn't averted her gaze yet. She turned her head away as silent tears fell. She wanted to tell them. She really did, but maybe she just didn't want the comfort anymore. If anything, she would tell Willowbranch.

[Isilme]

The tom blinked completely shocked by the leader sudden tears, what had he done?! "Sunstar are you in pain?!" He asked very aggitated, his mind didn´t allowed him to stay still anymore and without thinking much he approached the leader, what was going trough her head? He had no idea but would give anything to know at this moment. "Talk to me! What´s wrong?!" Nightfox was angry, but most of all frustated, because he had no idea how to help the female in front of him, no idea what was making she feel so sad at the point of crying, and the massive warrior had never felt so... Helpless and useless in his whole life, this only made he get even more restless, the den wasn´t really big but somehow he found enough space to walk side to side, what should he do?! The male stopped in front of the leader and just stared for a few moments, what he could do? He took a calming breath and lowered his head to look right into her eyes, the male just stayed still for a while, then said in a lower tone. "Let me help you, you don´t have to go trough this alone, doesn´t matter what your decision is, if you want, I will by your side."

[Deku]

She had hoped he wouldn't see the tears, but he had seen them anyways. She quickly stopped crying. She had to be strong. Especially around Nightfox. She hated anyone to see her so weak. He seemed frustrated, but then again so would she. If she was sitting in front of a sick leader who randomly burst into tears she would just give up on them, but Nightfox seemed yo desperately be trying to figure out what was wrong.

She watched silently as he paced in her den. She wanted to speak, tell him she was fine and nothing was wrong, but for some reason she couldn't bring herself to lie to him. So she kept her mouth shut. When he finally stopped, he met her gaze again. His next statement nearly brought her to tears again. It sounded like something Beetlestrike would have said. "Nightfox... he's gone..." She paused, biting digging her claws into her nest to keep from crying more.

[Isilme]

The male wanted to scream, he's gone, great, was he supposed to know who was gone? He hadn't any connection to Starclan and certainly didn't received crazy visions of who had disappeared of Leafclan in the last moons. "You will need to be more clear Sunny." He said making up the nickname for no particular reason, he just wanted her to be that warrior that had put him in line again, the strong she cat that fought him head on not caring if he was bigger or stronger, the leader that had taught him a new side of his life as a warrior. "Tell me everything from the beggining, then I will see what I can do." Nightfox layed down close to Sunstar nest and then waited for the female to start talking.

[Deku]

'Sunny?!' Any other point in time and she would have gone into a rage about how one should not give their leader or any senior warrior a nickname. She would have to focus on that later. She desperately needed someone to open up to and Beetlestrike was the only one who had ever been willing to listen.

"Beetlestrike is gone. He was a smaller warrior, and you were probably just about to be apprenticed when he became one." Should she tell him everything? Nightfox certainly wasn't one she had been able to trust from the beginning. She decided she would tell him, just leaving out details. "I was stressed when I first became leader, and I had gone to the Dead Woods to escape the responsibility for a while. I had had... other things on my mind as well, and Beetlestrike somehow found me. He became a friend, and whenever I needed someone to talk to he was there." She deliberately left out the fact that she had once abandoned LeafClan for a loner.

"He disappeared soon after I demoted you to apprentice. I couldn't find him anywhere..." Maybe Nightfox wouldn't be able to tell she had feelings for the smaller warrior. She honestly hadn't been ready to accept them herself.

[Isilme]

The black cat listened to the she cat tale with interest, he was indeed curious to know what or who had made the leader so broken like that, he didn´t showed any major reaction to her words beside a few pointed looks here and there as she kept talking, when silence made itself present for more than just a few moments he conclude she had said everything she wanted to and so he started to talk. "So, this guy was kind of your safe heaven?" The tom said more as a confirmation than a question and moved his tail side to side pondering his next words a little, it was a delicate matter and he didn´t wanted to make Sunstar cry again. "If he is gone there must be a reason, I didn´t knew him so I can´t say anything for sure, but perhaps something happened on his life that made him go away, and if he left without saying anything it´s probably because he didn´t wanted you to suffer with his departure, or because he knew that if he saw you, he would have stayed." Nightfox concluded looking into her eyes. "I can´t do anything to take your pain away Sunny, I can just be here and help make it a little less painful." He was being honest, the tom himself had never experienced the pain of losing someone important to him but his few friends often looked for confort in each other presence and that was the only thing he could offer the leader at this moment.

[Deku]

"So this guy was sort of your safe haven?" She nodded silently to confirm his statement. When he began to try and give her reason as to why he disappeared she sighed. "If his intentions were to cause less suffering, he failed. It's almost worse not knowing where he is or if he's dead. With how long he has been gone, it seems that I am forced to believe the latter." She paused a moment. The words coming from her mouth were hard. She didn't want to admit it. Not at all, but it was most likely. She was amazed that she could say all of that without shedding more tears. "I-I just have to get over it..." She finally added. Her voice was soft, nearly inaudible.

When he spoke again, she glanced up at him. She tried to read his expression to tell if he was telling the truth, or just saying it to make her feel better. She finally decided he was speaking the truth. He was actually going to try to help her. Something inside this warrior had changed over the two moons as an apprentice. She could definitely see that much. Somewhere in these thoughts, another coughing fit broke out. She had completely forgotten the real reason he had come.

OOC: About that nickname... Is it sticking? And when did you come up with it?

[Isilme]

OOC: It just happened lol and yes he will probably be using it when they are alone from now on

He raised a eyebrow at her statement but said nothing, getting over it hadn't worked until now, why suddenly she thought it was going to change he didn't knew, the male stayed silent then, he had no reason to say anything else at the moment, the situation was not good for his usual behavior so saying nothing was probably the best bet he could make, Nightfox had been so distracted with his own thoughts that the leader sudden coughing fit nearly made he jump on his paws, the tom cursed under his breath. "You really won't go to the medicine cats?" He asked his tail moving side to side restless again.

[Deku]

When the coughing subsided she sighed. "You've made a good point. I don't want to lose the trust of my clanmates. I will give it a day or so, but I guess it won't take much to stop by." She admitted, resting her head on her paws. "Thank you Nightfox." She muttered, her voice nearly inaudible. She had never thought she would say those three words in a sentence together. She had also never thought she would think of this tom as a friend. Silently she hoped he wouldn't suddenly distance himself.

OOC: If he keeps these visits/threads up she really is gonna get over Beetlestrike... Ack, maybe even develop a crush on him. Ooh, scary...

[Isilme]

The male couldn't stop a victorious grin, he had managed to convince her after all. "Of course I made a good point." Nightfox more purred than anything, he just loved when others said he was right, even over small things, at least he could rest easy knowing the she cat would be back to perfect health soon enough and not dying alone inside her den without anyone knowing, but her next words caught him completely by surprise, the male hadn't expected that particular reaction but well, it was good to know he had helped. "Hey, don't go all soft with me Sunny, I will be playing pranks on you again before you notice it." He said light hearted and pawed her ear in a playful manner. "Let's go hunting together when you get better." but as he walked to exit the den something came up to his mind. "Would you like me to spend the night here in case you get worse?" The tom asked looking back to the leader, he just wanted to make sure she had a good night of rest.

OOC: lol now wouldn't that be interesting? Haha