Do I Still Matter? (Frost)

[Icestorm]

Poppypaw shifted in her nest, restless. Looking around the apprentice den the small black she-cat noticed it that it seemed the others were sleeping. She quietly stretched herself out and went to the clearing. It was a warm night, one that she should be able to enjoy, but yet alone she felt cold. I wonder if Blackcloud would be at the Pond of Truce tonight? She had been missing the handsome tom a lot recently. However, she had been avoiding him ever since she found out about his mate, Shademinnow and their kits. It was exactly what she wanted. She had even tried to convince herself to forget about him, but it was hard. He seemed to be her first real friend, and first love. She sighed. "I guess I can at least see if he there." 

Poppypaw made her way to the Pond of Truce, quiet and quickly. It was her greatest fear, being caught. The warm air filled her nose. She didn't smell him, but she hoped he would come later. What if I don't matter to him anymore? Will he even come? She looked to the stars. She once thought it was good to be to see them on a night like this, but as she grew and was almost a warrior she realized how dangerous it was.

Tags: Frost

OOC: We haven't done much with them in long time, and I wanted to Rp her soo here we go

[Frost]

I love her, but I don't.

Blackcloud lied in the warriors den next to his mate, Shademinnow. but as wrong as it was the black and white tom's mind was wandering about another she-cat. Poppypaw. He thought of her vibrant green eyes that had his heart skip a beat. Her soft fur so gentle to the touch. Blackcloud let out a soft sigh, getting to his large white paws. "I'll just check." the warrior whispered to himself, avoiding tails and paws as he made his way out of the warriors den. Slipping out of the den the tom groomed his long fur, though he forgot about the dampness of his cheeks. Blackcloud ducked out of the bramble tunnel, making sure he didn't step on any twigs or something that would blow his cover. Allowing his paws to guide him, Blackcloud finally reached the pound of truce. Golden eyes moving around to see if anyone might also be there, he spotted her. Maybe all that hoping and praying he did paid off, she was here. She was here alone. Poppypaw hadn't found anyone else to meet at midnight and stay till dawn. Yes indeed, He was in fear of getting caught but right now he couldn't care less. "Poppypaw!" he cried joyfully, his voice fulled with love and compassion. running over to the small black apprentice, he rasped his touge over her ear, purring. 'Oh how I missed you! I love you, Poppypaw!' Blackcloud thought to himself. 'What!?! You back away form her or I will kill her, right here and now!' Nightshade hissed, clawing at Blackcloud's muzzle. Hissing, blood started to pour out of the tom's muzzle. "Never!" Blackcloud yowled, falling over on his back. To Poppypaw it must look quite strange, Blackcloud had just been scratched by something invisible. 'Kill her! Like how you attacked and helped kill Smokewhisker! Like that poor Leafclan tom you killed! Do it!' The Dark Forest tom screeched. "No! Please no!" Blackcloud cried, tears forming in hid golden orbs. By now poor little Poppypaw must be horrifIed. Blackcloud quickly got to his feet, and let his back face Poppypaw. He, for the first time in forever, Blackcloud started to sob. Not, cry but sob. He was a monster, a monster. The tom froze, it was happening again. He was back at the battle, he had pinned a small, scared, she-cat that was a new apprentice. She was pleading for him to let her go, crying her eyes out. Blackcloud had killed her seconds later. Slowly the flash back ended, and Backcloud was slowly stepping away from Poppypaw. He was a monster, and he would rather die then hurt her.
I want her, but I don't. I'm fine, but I'm not.

[Icestorm]

Poppypaw felt her heat race at the sound of her name. Blackcloud! He did come. She let a purr escape as he licked her ear. She pressed her head against his neck rubbing against him. She had missed him more than she would ever admit. When he started to act up she backed away. He had looked like this before, but he hadn't said anything out loud. She looked at him with concern. Who is he talking to? She felt a pang in her heart for him. Something was wrong but she didn't know what. Wait where was he going? "Blackcloud?" she called out to him in a loving voice. She didn't want to lose him, not when he was here now. "Blackcloud, please stay with me."