Leaving a World Behind

[Finch]

Back... Forth... Back... Forth...

Palewing paced worriedly, crushing the delicate Newleaf grass under her sheathing and unsheathing paws. It was a warm night and cricket's were chirping their song's gently in the wind. A small leaf from a nearby tree came loose and landed smoothly on top of the Pond of Truce sending a small ripple. Palewing winced as a small thorn entered her forepaw drawing her to a stop, this didn't stop her racing thought's though.

It had been several day's since she has last been here, however, her reason was not for Crowtail as some of her clan mates might think. Her teeth met the thorn and she gave a quick and angry tug. A small amount of blood oozed out but after a few quick lick's it stopped. She tried to get up again to pace but her paw released a shock of pain. She sighed and eased herself in a laying position. She gazed at her white swollen belly. 

Her reason for being here was to think.

She was having kits. She doubted it for awhile but since her first notice it has been getting larger and larger. She wasn't afraid of the hatred glare's and mistrust her clan mates show but for her kits. She knew the anger from her clan mates would be directed to her kits and they didn't deserve that. She didn't know what to do. Should she become a loner? The idea sickened her to live such a lonely life but their was no other choice right? An idea popped in her head. It wasn't the best but perhaps it was better than a loner life... For her and her kit's. With that she set off for Sunsetclan.

After a few miss turns and nearly crossing the midnight and leafclan border, Palewing finally made it to the Sunset border. She was about to search for the camp but decide against it for her own safety. Instead she laid down with her paws tucked underneath her, waiting for some cat or patrol to spot her.

Isilme

[Isilme]

Crowtail was hunting, not fishing, that made him a little annoyed because he loved fishing, sadly the waves were too strong that day so he couldn´t enter the sea, the large black tom had been wondering what happened with Palewing now that her clan knew about them, he had worried a lot about it but everytime he had gone to meet her she was not there, eventually he simple stopped going, she could have chose her clan over him of course and...
The wind picked up and a very familiar scent reached him. "Palewing?" he asked to himself before running into the direction and sure enough, the she cat was there. "Palewing." he meowed a little shocked. "What, what you doing here? I though you had left me for your clan." He said hurt on his voice.

[Finch]

Palewing flinched as she recognized the voice, she didn't spot him at first but soon enough she could make out his black outlining. She felt a stab of guilt as she noted the hurt words. It was true, she had left him for her clan... but that didn't seem to matter to her clan mates. Would things been different if she had left with Crowtail in the first place? She paused to think about this. Sunsetclan would have hated her even more... but she would have had Crowtail to care and support her but now...

Memory's of Crowtail and her flooded her mind, she sighed, pulling her view from the ground to his eyes and finally spoke, "I'm sorry, I really am..." Her voice, as always, maintained its cold state causing her to curse herself silently. She was sorry, truly sorry, and he deserved a better apology but she was never good with words, she might as well have been a mute. She silently wondered why Crowtail ever become mates with such a cold klutz like her anyways.

She got up to her paw's flinching as she used her injured paw. The cut had deepened and stung from treading on the rough sand, she hoped the pain wasn't to visible. If She wanted any luck joining Sunsetclan she couldn't seem weak "I want to join Sunsetclan. I-" She paused. What if Crowtail hated her now... should she tell him? She wouldn't blame him, she wasn't a very likeable cat after all but these were their kits and he deserved more than anything to know. After a long pause she continued. "I'm having kit's."

[Isilme]

The black cat listened to her words, he knew why she was there, being nearly a medicine cat himself he had been aware of her pregnancy the last time they had meet but he had expected she would tell him herself, he was still hurt that she had decided to leave him in the first place. He noticed imediatly that the she cat was injuried and didn't though twice before getting close to her. "Let me see you paw." He whispered not really looking at her eyes. "Palewing I... I already knew that you were with kits." He meowed his ears flatting on his head as he voice twisted with sadness. "I'm used with taking care of other cats and I have seem and taken care of lots of queens, I can recognize one when I see." His eyes were focused on the ground not really wanting to look at her. "I'm happy that you are here but... After all of this I was expecting the worst, why did you came?" He looked at her eyes now waiting for an answer.

[Finch]

Palewing lifted her paw for the black cat to examine. So he knew. She should have figured that he might have, after all, he was very good with herbs and although Crowtail claimed that he was happy she was here, she couldn't help but feel it was a lie.

She wouldn't blame him...

She didn't hesitate to answer his question. "The kits. They might have a better life in Sunsetclan." She paused then added, "I understand if you don't..." 'want to be mates anymore' was the rest of the words but they got caught in her throat. She shook her head and continued "...they need a father, not just a mother." She knew this from experience. Although she never lost her annoying father, she had lost her mother and it took a depressing effect on her siblings.

"It will be risky, I know, but their future is all that matters." She stated with resolution. 


Occ: I'm so sorry that I have been inactive lately. My muse is very low and currently shows no sign of improvement. 


Isilme

[Isilme]

(Thats completly okay Finch :3)

Crowtail sighed after giving a basic treatment on her paw. "Pale, I love you." He meowed looking into her eyes. "There's no other she cat in the world for me but you." The black tom moved his whiskers thinking about what she was saying. "If you are sure that is this what you want, I will take you to the camp so we can talk with Ratstar together, but only if you are sure." His voice was deadly serious as he spoke.