The Search for Answers(Tagged)

[Lightningtrail]

The moment when you realize missing him only tears you apart

((Isilme with Fallenstorm, @wildpelt with Ashfang, and @bluecomet with Moonpaw))

Goldenstar had been pacing in her den for what felt like hours. When did StormClan get so screwed up? Half of StormClan was in love with other clan's cats, Moonpaw was still hearing voices, Tansypaw still had no friends, she still was upset over Tuuka, the loner she loved throughout her warrior years. No, not all of those were recent. Tuuka had stopped visiting her well before she became deputy. And, for all she knew, StormClan was still obsessed with forbidden relationships when she was young. She just did not care, because she did not have to care. but now she was the leader, she had been leader for moons, and she had to deal with all of this absolute foxdung.

The she-cat left her den. It was early in the morning still, and she assumed that at least Moonpaw and Tansypaw would still be sleeping. She made her way into the apprentice den, being careful not to step on any tails on the way. She shook Moonpaw a couple times, trying to wake the she-cat up. "Moonpaw, time to go," She mewed. The golden cat then traveled over the sleeping bodies to her son, Tansypaw. She poked him in the side, and the tom shot out of his nest as though he had just gotten poked by a fox. "Mom? Oh, yes, we-we're going to the, um, Skyfield, ri-right?" He stuttered. "Yes, make sure that Moonpaw wakes up," Goldenstar meowed, turning to go back out into the clearing. Tansypaw's ears gave a flick of understanding as he moved over to Moonpaw. If she did not wake up soon, she was bound to get many repetative pokes in the side until she did.

She had gathered the necessary traveling herbs earlier from the medicine cat, and they now sat in nice, neat little bundles outside of her den. She knew that she was not allowed to have any, but she did not want Moonpaw and Tansypaw to be complaining the whole way to the Skyfield. She assumed that both Ashfang and Fallenstorm were capable enough warriors to not need to be woken, so she sat and awaited for the rest of the cats to join her.

is the moment you find your dignity

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Ashfang padded out of the warriors den and streched. It was the big day. Time to head to Skyfield with Goldenstar, Fallenstorm, and Moonpaw. He dropped his jaw and yawned. He lifted his head when he saw Goldenstar waiting for the group to assemble. He licked his chest a couple of time, Never hurts to clean yourself for the leader. This was his motto. He licked his face and jogged over to the leader, "Hello Goldenstar. A nice morning for a long trip, don't you think?" He was trying to act his best in front of the leader. He had only recently become a warrior, and he didn't want to screw it up.

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(Sorry for the late reply Lightningtrail !)
Moonpaw was having such a nice dream. It involved clan leadership and no voices in her head. Oh, it was such a nice dream, but it didn't last long. Something was trying to come in. Something, or someone, was trying to break down the barrier that separated the wall between sleep and the waking world, but she didn't want to wake up. Poke poke. Poke poke. The barrier was slowly crumbling. Poke poke. She tried to ignore it, but she was waking up. Maybe if she ignored it the poking would go away? Poke poke. Nope. No such luck. After a couple more pokes to the side, she decided she had had enough.
-Are you BLIND?! I am OBVIOUSLY trying to get some sleep!
That's when she saw it was an apprentice that looked vaguely like Goldenstar while said cat was organizing the patrol to go to the Skyfield. The Skyfield! How could she forget!
She jumped out of her den, giving her pelt a quick grooming. She didn't want to look bad! And why were those stupid thorns always getting stuck in her pelt?!
~You have pretty long fur. That's the least you can expect.
-Shut up...
She grumbled, not even realizing she had said it out loud. That's when she noticed that apprentice was still there.
-Uh...Yeah...Er...Sorry for yelling at you...
She wasn't good with apologies.

[Isilme]

Fallenstorm had been already up a for a while, the tom was still haunted with nightmares from the battle to save his apprentice life he hadn't really sleeped for days, so he saw as Goldenstar left her nest to wake up the apprentices while eating a fish, the leader seemed to be very ancious for this trip if not a little nervous but the tom didn't knew how to calm her so he chose to remain quite.

He still had time to gromm his fur before Ashfang showed up and only then he walked in their direction. "Morning you two, sleep well?" The silver tabby asked a tired smile on his lips. "Will the apprentice be joinning us soon?" Fallenstorm asked to Goldenstar moving his tail side to side.

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-The apprentices are right over here!
Moonpaw shouted and waved one of her paws. She was starting to fill with excitement from ear to claw, ahe couldn't wait! She still tried to keep her thoughts straight. If she was going to have to make a good impression!
-Oh, come on, you, let's go!
Not even bothering to wait for all his reactions to her yelling, apologizing and urging him to follow her with about ten seconds of time (seeming) to pass, she rushed over to Godlenstar and the two warriors. She didn't really know them, so she figured she might as well introduce herself.
-Hello there. I'm Moonpaw! Who are you?
She smiled. She didn't want to seem to formal, she knew sometimes it could get on other cat's nerves. So she just limited herself to being friendly, trying to keep her shyness at bay.
~That's how I like you...
Now, she wasn't sure, but it almost felt as if the voice had...Smiled? She shook off the feeling. She sat down, gave herself another quick groom, and patiently waited for the older warriors to respond. She wondered what they thought of her.
Probably a trouble-making kittens...She thought bitterly, but she just shook the thought off. She was probably soon going to be a warrior, since she was almost ten or twelve moons old. Her thoughts kept rushing wihtout any real thought...Erm, did that even make sense? She just kept smiling.

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"I slept rather well thank you, and you?" Ashfang stretched again and yawned. He wanted to act like this was no big deal going to the Skyfield. Even though he was bouncing like a little kit inside.

He looked over at the little apprentice Moonpaw. She was the apprentice who was going to go along with them, "Hello, I'm Ashfang,and you must be the apprentice who is going to travel with us." He meowed. He remembered the first time he went to the Skyfield. It had been amazing and a little frightening, but there was nothing like speaking to StarClan. A pang of sadness ran through him as he remembered. He was coming on this trip so he could speak to his mother once more.

[Lightningtrail]

The first cat to assemble was Ashfang. Although he was a newer warrior, Goldenstar knew of his strength in fighting and of his intelligence. If anything unplanned were to happen on this trip, she was sure that Ashfang would be of help, not a burden. "Good morning, Ashfang," Goldenstar greeted, her tail held high in a friendly hello. "I agree, the weather sure is nice today."

The next to join was Fallenstorm. Goldenstar knew him as not only a warrior but as a father, and hoped that he might help Moonpaw on the journey. He also was a strong fighter, and Goldenstar knew that she could put complete trust in this warrior. "Yes, actually, I did have a full night of rest. I hope you got the same, as you will need all of your energy for the trip." She mewed. She looked around, wondering if Tansypaw had succeeded in waking Moonpaw yet.

It seemed that he had been successful, as Moonpaw soon appeared. Goldenstar turned her head after the apprentice called out, and watched as the she-cat made her way over to the gathered party. Goldenstar mewed a quick hello to the apprentice, and simply watched as Moonpaw introduced herself. This is the Moonpaw I like to see.[/b] "Ok, so I see that everyone has gathered. Each of you, take a pack of traveling herbs. We will not have time to hunt on our journey, and you all need to keep your strength up." She instructed.


Tansypaw's nose tapped Moonpaw's flank again and again, urging her to wake up. Goldenstar would surely be angry with the she-cat if she dillydallied, and Tansypaw would hate to be the cause of that. Tansypaw did manage to wake the now very grumpy cat up. He stumbled back in terror, his eyes wide. He tripped on a tail and fell backwards, tumbling until he lay flat on his belly. He stared at her as she talked to herself, and then attempted an apology. "Um, it-its o-ok," He mumbled. His stutter always got worse when he was afraid for his life. He slowly got to his feet, moving back to his nest for some more sleep when Moonpaw told him to join her. "but-but Goldenstar did not, um, say that-that I could come!" He called back, though he did follow the she-cat out of the den. The tom sat a little ways away from the patrol, wanting to watch them leave.

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-Hello there, Ashfang. Nice to meet you!
She smiled. Maybe she had made a good impression after all. She honestly thought that Goldenstar and Nighfire were enough as friends...How Nightfire would get mad if she had heard her, she had to only consider a mentor. And she tried. She nodded at what Goldenstar said, and then saw the apprentice still not coming.
-Oh come on, she's not going to bite your nose off if you ask to come!
I don't think...She thought. Without even waiting for his reaction, she grabbed him by the scruff and tried to drag him over to Goldenstar. Sure, she wasn't the strongest apprentice, but she was way older then this kid...She thinked...

[Isilme]

Fallenstorm smiled to the apprentices kindly and went to grab his herbs, full strengh she had said, and that was exactly what he was going to give his clan, the warrior held his head high even being tired as he most certainly was and followed Goldenstar proudly to the Skyfield, the tom had no idea what expected them but the tom was indeed curious. "Tell me Goldenstar, what are you looking for exactly? This whole trip was a little sudden" he meowed curious but not letting it reach his voice.

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Ashfang stepped forward and took the herbs from Goldenstar, "Thanks you," He gulpped down the herbs. Ick! Their just as bad as they were last time! Oh well what must be done. He thought to himself.  

He turned his head when he heard Fallenstorm ask Goldenstar why they were going.  Ashfang stepped forward, "Yea, why are we going? It all seems sudden. Did something happen?" He didn't want to be left out of this information. He had been considering reasons for going to the Skyfield. At first he thought it was just about having Moonpaw see her ancestors, but maybe it was something more serious and dangerous to StormClan.  It was odd to him that he and Fallenstorm would be coming along. It didn't seem... Natural.

[Lightningtrail]

Goldenstar noticed that Tansypaw was standing on the edge of the clearing, and assumed that he just wanted to watch the group leave. She gave him a small nod, and turned back to the gathered cats. She then turned to Fallenstorm. “Well, you see,” Goldenstar started, but glanced at Moonpaw. This was partially for her. This was partially because of the voices in the apprentices head, and because of the StarClan cat that supposedly visiting her. This was because Goldenstar was worried that Moonpaw was going to end up just being a pawn in a horrible scheme. but she respected Moonpaw’s privacy, and would not tell anyone her secret. “I am worried about how many she-cats are having kits with outsiders, and I wish to ask StarClan for guidance.” She decided. Yes, that was a big part of the reason why she wanted to go, this was not a lie; she was not lying to her warriors. She gave a small half smile. “Maybe you will notice how I chose only tom warriors to accompany me? It is because I am worried that I may not be able to trust all of the she-cats in this clan.”

Goldenstar got to her feet. “Is everyone ready to go?” She asked. It would be a long journey, and she hoped to leave as soon as possible. She was about to leave when Moonpaw literally dragged Tansypaw over. Goldenstar gave him a look of confusion as she listened to him sputter. “Tansypaw…Moonpaw, what is it?” She asked with a tilt of her head.
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Tansypaw watched the cats for only a mere moment before Moonpaw dashed back over to him. His eyes grew wide again, like large emeralds against his light pelt. “Moo-Moonpaw, I don’t, um, think-” The tom was interputed by the feeling of teeth against his scruff. The tom was a puny cat, and, even though he was about 9 moons old, he could easily be mistaken as a kit. He dug his claws into the ground, but was relatively easily dragged across the clearing and to the gathering cats. “Um, um, Golden-Goldenstar, I” He muttered under his breath. Was it bad to be afraid of your mother? No, she was not just his mother but also the leader. And who wouldn’t be afraid of a leader? but, due to this tom’s probably unreasonable fear of not only the leader but also of denial and of saying stupid things, he was not going to speak anymore. If Moonpaw wanted him to come, she was going to have to ask Goldenstar herself.

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The tom nodded understanding her reasons, he had indeed see lots of she cats having kits without mates, or at least present ones. "It was a wise choice, you can never know witch she cat is involved or not." He nodded approviling. "I hope that Starclan can aid us, the clan should never have reached this point." Fallenstorm meowed looking at the she cat with his good eye.

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Ashfang tilted his head considering the leaders words. It was a reasonable answer.

He nodded his head, "Yes I'm reading to set out." He looked out towards the direction hey would be heading. It would be a long trip there. Though it was always worth it. To go talk with your ancestors was a wonderful thing. A thing that all clan cats should cherish. Kittypets, loners, and rouges could never speak with their ancestors. They were left in the dark never knowing how their ancestors felt about them. If they had died happy or if they had died in sorrow and regret.

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-Can Tansy come with us?
Since she was still holding him in her scruff, it sounded more like
-Fan Franfy plum fif uf?
She then decided that Goldenstar had not gotten a thing, so she set him down gently...Ok, so she really hadn't been big on the gentleness factor but she didn't slam him down. She gobbled down some of the travel herbs and almost gagged. What were they made of? Mouse bile!? Fighting the urge to spit the spit the stuff out, she swallowed.
-Ugh...Okay, so as I was saying, can Tansy come with us?
She has suddenly remembered his name was Tansypaw, but just loved that nickname. She hoped Goldenstar wouldn't get mad over it, did it sound too much like a kittypet name?
-Er...I mean Tansypaw...Hey Tansy, get over here, please!
She wasn't really saying "Tansy" in a mean way, but more in a slightly teasing way. If you had someone to blame for the nicknames, it was the voice, always calling her moon!
She waited for the voice to say something, but it didn't. Oh well. Before even waiting for anyone's reactions, she got some of the travel herbs and tried to feed them to Tansypaw.
-Dude, you're going to need some extra ones! Here, I don't want you fainting!
She kept trying to feed him some, not even bothering to check if he had actually eaten it. She wasn't being forceful or rude really, at least in her mind. She was trying to do this gently...but why did she care about the little thing anyway?