Cries of Despair (OPEN)

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Plot: Any cat want to attempt to cheer Nutflower up?

The chocolate brown warrior exited out of the warrior den. Her fur glistened in the sunlight. She padded into the sunlight and laid down. She delicately started licking her paws. He narrow, almond like eyes adjusted to the light quickly. Nutflower seemed fairly relaxed. She certainly looked relaxed. However, looks could be deceiving. Inside, Nutflower was bubbling with grief. Flashes of her mate flew through her mind. "I wish you were here," Nutflower whispered. Images of her brutal brothers chasing her mate filled her mind.

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-Badgerclaw-

Badgerclaw had been resting in the warriors den after a long night of patrolling and not being able to sleep.  More than once he had gotten up from his nest and milled about in the clearing for a bit before he got tired again.  Not being able to sleep had really taken a toll on the warrior.  He had just been able to doze off when the birds began to sing, welcoming the sun.  Of course, the birds didn't cause him to rise.  There was about an hour that had passed before there was another disturbance that was enough to lift him from his light sleep.  

Another warrior had risen from their nest and trotted outside, stepping on his fluffy tail on her way out.  Any cat would not be pleased to have their tail stepped on, let alone when they had just been able to fall asleep.  Badgerclaw, despite his easy-going disposition, was not exempt from the irritation and rose to his paws.  He followed the dark pelted she-cat out to see if she had even noticed his tail.  but, he was cut short when he caught the sound of her voice on the breeze.  It was layered with a thick sadness that made him immediately regret thinking any ill-thoughts about her.  The large, dark tom slowed his pace as he approached.

As he got closer he was able to better recognize her.  Her name was nestled in the back of his mind, but he was able to drag it from hiding.  "Hey, Nutflower."  His raspy voice was quiet, and he said her name quickly.  The way one does when they are unsure of the name.  He could only hope it was right as he settled in the sun not too far away from her.  "What has ya' up this early in the mornin'?"   His orange eyes moved towards hers.  Badgerclaw had not yet spoken to this she-cat, but it seemed as though there was something she needed to talk about.  For some reason, her was always drawn to cats who seemed to need help.  It was the reason he had quite a few friends in the clan.  Hopefully she would become another.

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Nutflower's ears perked up as she heard Badgerclaw. The she-cat did not realize Badgerclaw was there. Stop grieving. Your senses will go dull if you keep grieving. A fierce reminder of what Nutflower had once been, a cat with a keen sense of what was going around her. She stood up and faced Badgerclaw. With a dip of her head she mewed, "Hello, Badgerclaw,"

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Badgerclaw gave a quick nod as she stood, he did not mean to make her rise from her resting spot.  Although, the closer she got the more he noticed the slightly distraught light in her eyes.  He offered a friendly expression as she greeted him with a kind voice.  Something seemed to be a bit off and it was clear her mind was busy because she mustn't of heard his prior question.  So, the tom gently repeated it in another way.  "Most cats are still alseep this early in the mornin' so why are you up?"  His head tilted to the side just a fraction, his thick voice tinged with a light curiosity.  

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"Most cats are still alseep this early in the mornin' so why are you up?"

Nutflower's tail slightly twitched. The young warrior's jaw clenched tightly together. She turned her head away from Badgerclaw. Her eyes turned misty as she remembered how she use to wake up so very early... That was when herate was still around. It hurt her so much to remember to cheerful tom. Her ears flicked. Her tail swayed. And her eyes followed the motions of the breeze which passed by. She felt her fur chase after the wind as it past. Nutflower felt a sudden wave of calmness vibrate throughout her body. She turned to face Badgerclaw again. "I was just enjoying this beautiful morning." Nutflower lied.

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The tom looked at her calmly with interested orange eyes.  When he had asked her his previous question it was as if her whole being reacted.  Her dark head had turned away and there was a flick of her tail that caught his eye.  Now, Badgerclaw was no fool at this point. He recalled what his father had once told him, when a cat looks away after a question is asked a squirrel ran by or they are dealing with something more than they are letting on.  She had, however, answered him.  Her delicate voice claimed she was out to enjoy the mornings weather.  It was a fair enough claim seeing that it was pleasantly cool where it would be hot as the day went on.  but, he knew something was up.  

Now he was sort of caught at a crossroads.  Badgerclaw was afraid that he didn't know this cat well enough to really pry in to her mind, but he also knew how good it felt to get something from ones shoulders.  He sat for a moment in the sun, letting his coat soak up the gentle rays for a moment before speaking again.  "I can agree with ya' there... the weather is near perfect."  His orange gaze moved up to the trees, and then he spoke again. "Are you sure there isn't another reason?"  Mentally, he praised himself.  This question was a leeway.  Now it was her turn to make a choice. If she didn't want to talk about it, surely she would deny the 'other reason' and the could just continue on with a leisurely conversation.  If she did, then perhaps he could help her out.  but, either way he planned to hang around her for a bit and maybe cheer her up.

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OOC: Nutty is a hardy to crack. Badgerclaw will have to be persistent.

"Are you sure there isn't another reason?"

Nutflower's eyes flashed angrily. It wasn't Badgerclaw's job to know whatever she did and why she did it. Her shackles rose and fell. She growled angrily before standing up, swishing her tail side to side angrily, and storming far away from Badgerclaw. She hated when other cats pryed into her business. Flashes of her mate's kind smile poured into her mind. Pain seeped through her heart. Why did everything bad have to happen to her?

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Nutflowers reaction had caught him off guard. The way she lurched away so quickly had made it apparent that something was definitely wrong. A cat didn't just storm away for not reason at all, there was something weighing down on the she-cat. Of course, Badgerclaw was so surprised by her reaction that he just sat there for a moment, watching her stalk away, her tail lashing menacingly behind her. Her anger almost dissuaded him from prying further. At this point he was unsure if he was pursuing her out of curiosity or if it was still the natural need to assist his clan mates when they needed help. Either way, he was still going to figure out what was going on.

"Wait, Nutflower!" The tom bounded over to her, closing the small distance between them quickly. "Wait up..." Badgerclaw came up next to her, matching her stride with ease but also keeping a small distance between them. He really didn't want to get his ears claws off for being so persistent. "Ya can't just storm off like that. Others will notice and some may also want to know whats goin' on." He looked at her carefully, "I know ya have something weighing on your shoulders and maybe if you talk about it, it might help." Badgerclaw turned his gaze away. "but if you really don't want to talk about it, we can just walk. That's what I do to clear my thoughts." This was true. Whenever things got too stressful Badgerclaw would slip away for a while to stretch his legs. He personally found that this helped him more than anything else. but, he didn't know Nutflower enough to know if that would help her.

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OOC: Ooh! Just got an idea Badgerclaw could fall in love with Nutflower. Badgerclaw wants her to become his mate. Nutflower rejects him the first time but accepts the next.

Nutflower grunted. She had to admit, Badgerclaw was correct. If she did storm off like that, cats would start wondering. but Nutflower wouldn't be dead caught admitting it to the world. She really just wanted to be left alone. Realizing the fastest way was to spill it, Nutflower hissed furiotivly. After that was over, she finally spoke. "Do you remember when I returned? The other cat with me? Well, you see, he was more than my friend. He was, but, he was... Also- I've kept it a secret too long. My mate. My brothers found out and... They chased him away," Nutflower mewed quietly. Memory of her severely wounded mate running for his life filled her mind. She couldn't believe she was that desperate. Nutflower added more roughly, "Tell anybody, you're crowfood."

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Finally he seemed to get somewhere with her.  As soon as he had stopped talking she quickly snapped at him, but told him what was wrong.  She spoke so quickly in the beginning he could hardly understand her, soon enough her voice did slow and lower in volume.  He looked at her with sympathetic eyes.  Badgerclaw vaguely recalled the moment she came back with another cat that he had not recognized at her side.  The tom that was with her had an odd scent, he did remember that.  Of course, he had only seen them briefly and did not to think too much about it.  He was taken aback by the fact that the cat with her was her mate, clearly her prior mate had not been from the clan.  but, he supposed that love is love and if your love was torn away, a part of your being was torn away with them.  

He sat in silence for a moment, digesting the short story she had told him. Badgerclaw gave her a quick comforting lick to the ear, although he was sure it would have minimal impact on comforting her.  He just risked getting his own ears clawed off in the process. "I am so sorry.  I know it must hurt more than any wound."  His rough voice was gentle and almost warm.  Although the only loved one he had lost was his mother, he still felt like he could understand.  The love between mother and son is different between mates, but it still hurts to lose them either way.  "This probably won't make you feel any better, but given time all wounds heal, both physical and emotional.  Just remember that."  

OOC: Hmm Hmm I just got an idea too, that grew from your idea. I'll pm you~ 

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Nutflower stiffened as Badgerclaw licked her ear. "I'm not a kit!" Nutflower thought spitefully. She gave Badgerclaw a good long glare before laying down. She licked her paws gently. She heard Badgerclaw speak but Nutflower chose to ignore them. Her ears flicked once or twice and her tail twitched. After Badgerclaw was done speaking, Nutflower sat up. Her harsh tone proved that the little glimpse of her sensitive side was gone, "I don't need comforting!" She licked her fur tenderly.

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A sigh erupted from Badgerclaw as Nutflower laid down, facing away from him.  For a moment he thought it was an action of sadness, but he could tell she was still angry.  She had not even looked at him while he spoke and only sat up to meet his comforting with rejection.  "I am just trying to help you."  His tone was almost bitter, but also a bit saddened.  There was something about being unable to help another get through tough times that made him a bit sad.  Some cats just hurt too much to be helped, perhaps the wound was too raw.  "but if you don't want my help then I can just leave you be."  This time his words were a mix of gentleness and hardness.  

The tom looked at her long and hard.  He couldn't understand what made her push him away so much.  Maybe she just didn't trust him, which in a way it made sense.  but than again, it didn't.  Nutflower had just revealed a secret to him that was followed by a threat, so she had to trust him, if only it was a mouse tails worth.  He was ready to turn and leave her were she sat, but for some reason he couldn't make himself do it.  It just didn't feel right.  So, he gave her one last chance. "Is that what you want?"  If it was, then he would leave her be. 

OOC: If she wants to be left alone then the thread can end and perhaps we can start another after some time has passed when she feels a bit better.