Post by :-Misa-: on Sept 1, 2015 19:00:32 GMT -5
I didn't think that this would happen so early on into the school year, but this time it's not because of work. I don't mind sharing this with you all because 1. I don't know you irl and 2. I trust you all and have come to think of you guys as an online family. This is hard for me to share and I hope that it doesn't change your opinions on me.
So as you may or may not know I'm a teenager in high school and these are the years I'm trying to figure myself out. I'm trying to figure out who I am, what I want to do with myself, but I've lost sight of this. I try so hard to be perfect for everyone. As a result of that I'm unable to express myself fully and properly, especially when it comes to negative emotions. This serves as a huge issue because I'm not the most high in confidence and I'm impossibly hard on myself. I'm not going to lie and say my life sucks, because I've been blessed by a good life and I'm thankful for it everyday, but even with all of that I haven't been able to develop a sense of happiness with myself.
For about 9 months I've been holding impossible weights of guilt on my shoulders, and for even longer I've been bearing responsibilities that I'm too young to handle. I don't feel comfortable sharing what exactly they are, but I can assure you neither of which are petty. It all eventually crashed and burned on me and this hit it's pinnacle yesterday.
At times I feel like I'm on top of the world, but at other times I want nothing to really do with it at all. The feeling that all I do is hurt people overwhelms me and I feel like everyone would be better off without me. Once again, I'll spare the specifics. It got to the point where I kept a blade in my backpack at all times, and I nearly let it go to use.
I had the cops called on me by a friend who I happened to send my last message to and they got to me alongside the principal just before I was about to ask to head to the bathroom.
Long story short I was taken to the hospital where I was brought to talk to a psychiatrist. I was discharged a few hours later luckily with just the need to start seeing a therapist.
Anyway
The point of why I'm sharing this with you all is because I need some time away from everyone (irl friends too, so this is nothing against you all) to find myself, I guess you could say, and get better. If anyone wants to get in touch with me PM me or add me on Skype (Misaki-Midnight) and just lemme know who you are here. I'm extremely sorry everyone
I hope to talk to you all soon <3
-Misa
Legit Echo Ferretpaw Falcon NIXX ℓυиαя SplatoonBaboon Skiv Rogue (tagging anyone who may be affected by this absence)
So as you may or may not know I'm a teenager in high school and these are the years I'm trying to figure myself out. I'm trying to figure out who I am, what I want to do with myself, but I've lost sight of this. I try so hard to be perfect for everyone. As a result of that I'm unable to express myself fully and properly, especially when it comes to negative emotions. This serves as a huge issue because I'm not the most high in confidence and I'm impossibly hard on myself. I'm not going to lie and say my life sucks, because I've been blessed by a good life and I'm thankful for it everyday, but even with all of that I haven't been able to develop a sense of happiness with myself.
For about 9 months I've been holding impossible weights of guilt on my shoulders, and for even longer I've been bearing responsibilities that I'm too young to handle. I don't feel comfortable sharing what exactly they are, but I can assure you neither of which are petty. It all eventually crashed and burned on me and this hit it's pinnacle yesterday.
At times I feel like I'm on top of the world, but at other times I want nothing to really do with it at all. The feeling that all I do is hurt people overwhelms me and I feel like everyone would be better off without me. Once again, I'll spare the specifics. It got to the point where I kept a blade in my backpack at all times, and I nearly let it go to use.
I had the cops called on me by a friend who I happened to send my last message to and they got to me alongside the principal just before I was about to ask to head to the bathroom.
Long story short I was taken to the hospital where I was brought to talk to a psychiatrist. I was discharged a few hours later luckily with just the need to start seeing a therapist.
Anyway
The point of why I'm sharing this with you all is because I need some time away from everyone (irl friends too, so this is nothing against you all) to find myself, I guess you could say, and get better. If anyone wants to get in touch with me PM me or add me on Skype (Misaki-Midnight) and just lemme know who you are here. I'm extremely sorry everyone
I hope to talk to you all soon <3
-Misa
Legit Echo Ferretpaw Falcon NIXX ℓυиαя SplatoonBaboon Skiv Rogue (tagging anyone who may be affected by this absence)
