Post by Deleted on Sept 10, 2015 19:05:20 GMT -5
So, I'm going to keep this as short and simple as I can so I don't end up crying, ok? Ok.
I've been debating this topic for a while now, and I've finally concluded what I should do. I'm not going to run from this decision anymore, and I will face my choices head on. I am leaving the site. Period. I will not come back, nor will I even pop in the c-box. If you wish to contact me - if you truly wish - then I know you'll be able to find a way to contact me.
This site is great, let me just start off with that. but I no longer feel as though I belong in the community anymore. I can't summon up muse to do anything, and I feel bad for all those who had plots. Sure, I took a break and was able to catch up a bit, but it was too much for me to handle. I'm not even aware of half of the new members, and although I've been here for a while, none of them know me. What does that say about my activity? It says a lot, mind you. That's why I must say that I can no longer handle this. I'm starting high school, one of the top public high schools in the country, and I'm already fubbing up this great opportunity I have.
Heck, I can't even catch up with my own duties of this site. I'm a bit surprised I wasn't demoted of my position sooner.
Thus, I'm resigning my position as staff and my right as a member up as of now. To be honest, I'm not even sure how many of you are actually going to read this. Even then, I don't really care. This is just to get this off my chest. I'm regretting this decision already, but as I stated before, this is happening. This I reality.
The people that I have stayed for are gone or have moved on or perhaps they've even just talked to me on a rare occasion, but even then, the anchors that have kept me here are gone, and I must depart as well. Warrior cats has changed my life, the people that have moved on already have made such a great impact on me that I don't know if I can say that I would be here, alive and breathing, if it weren't for them - no joke. However, I can no longer roleplay these cats - though I will not quit roleplaying all together. I stll have two sites that I am a part of, but as for warrior cats, I'm breaking up with the fandom. I still love the cats - I still love the books. I still love my babies! but I can't torture them anymore, meaning I can't let them sit around when they could be doing other important stuff. Thus, I will let them retire and frolic around in my brain, alone but not forgotten.
Who ever liked me anyway, right? I mean I was horrible in keeping up with apps, making promises and not keeping them, being a complete child in the c-box - good riddance, right? Well, whatever, that's probably just the pessimistic me talking.
So, farewell, and I hope you don't miss me much. I didn't leave sooner because I didn't want to hurt anybody, but instead, I hurt myself deeply in the process.
Clemintine, you are the only one I am tagging because I'm hoping you'll the do the honor of carrying on my cranky, grumpy, tsundere of a cat, Spottedsky, until the bitter end - whatever that may be. I pray that he's able to raise an apprentice and live a happy life after all the lives he's seen come and go.
Goodbye.
I won't ever forget you.
I promise.
-Eren
a.Okay.a. Lily