Post by Ambrose on Nov 3, 2015 13:29:06 GMT -5
Hi, everyone. This post is going to be filled with emotion, so please forgive me xD
I'm sure that a lot of you know me, maybe by my old name, Shade, or my newer name, Ambrose. I joined AWRP on February 8th, 2014, at 8:16pm. It was a lazy Saturday evening, and the bored Google search changed me; perhaps my life, in a minor way. I have been staff on AWRP since April 30th, a day that certainly changed my life, if not just my schedule. I should probably jump to an explanation, since you're probably wondering why I'm leaving.
I'm sure that a lot of you know me, maybe by my old name, Shade, or my newer name, Ambrose. I joined AWRP on February 8th, 2014, at 8:16pm. It was a lazy Saturday evening, and the bored Google search changed me; perhaps my life, in a minor way. I have been staff on AWRP since April 30th, a day that certainly changed my life, if not just my schedule. I should probably jump to an explanation, since you're probably wondering why I'm leaving.
I'm leaving AWRP simply because I don't enjoy it as much as I used to. It used to be a place that inspired me to leave my bed in the morning, to get a thread done or to plot with my new, exciting cat, Shadekit (now known as Shademinnow). It used to be fun - but now it just seems like work, something that needs to be done. With my stressed nature, I used to put deadlines on threads, so if it wasn't done by a particular day, I would feel like shit. but it was like trying to make a house with no bricks (woah Ambrose, getting into the deep metaphors now) when I tried to make a thread or respond to one. I dismissed it, for months on end, as a lack of muse. It could have been that partially, but my waning passion for roleplaying was undoubtedly a major cause.
It prompts me to wonder if leaving is the correct word to be using. I will be leaving the roleplay and staff aspects, yes, but I WILL NOT be leaving the chatbox and will always be contactable on Skype at AmmyEpicness (oh my god 8 year old skype name).
I really think that I'm making the right choice by leaving for a few reasons; first of all, a staff member who hates her position isn't much use. Being a staff member felt like a job after a while, and now I realise that it was a privilege to help the site and its members. There are plenty of staff that clearly love their position and they're admirable people and a great help to the site, but I feel like I'm not capable for that right now. Second, I believe that there must be a more active roleplayer for LeafClan's deputy. Willowbranch has given birth to her kits (in the Nursery, not the Gathering thank StarClan), but soon after was snatched up by an eagle. She is not dead.
I'm certainly very thankful for AWRP and its impact on my life. Definitely the most important thing would be my friends that I made here, but they're getting a seperate paragraph. I was so thankful for a long time to be staff on this site, but mostly I was thankful for the high position that was given to me - the LeafClan deputy. Willowbranch was one of the reasons that I tried to stay; her sassy, yet empowered personality was to die for, and her two litters of kits were a joy for her to raise.
but for sure, the people that I met were definitely the best part of my experience on AWRP.
Wolf, Roselocke, @misseren, Carotius, Legit, Lightningtrail, Echo, Icestorm, @goldenbird, Isilme, Midnight, Clemintine, and Dyzzie, thank you. There's definitely more, but you were the ones I could think of immediately. You're all great and I love you all.
This might not be for a long time, but there's an equal possibility that it will.
Thank you everyone, and goodbye.
Ambrose